We all feel like there's a gap somewhere in our lives; there's a place where our self-obsessed hobbies lack connection to our larger sand-sucking commitments. Somewhere along the synaptic highways our of bodies, a neuron misfires and we're left feeling just short of completion.
I close my eyes and I'm standing on the beach. The waves march into the shore and loyally crash onto the evolving ground under which my feet stay planted. I can never stand here for long until I grow restless. I either need to be walking North, South, or East...East is my most quiet option. When I walk east, the waves crash around my legs, until they take grip around my shoulders. When walking east, the sloshing of sea foam is replaced by the eternal noise of my body bobbing up and down with the swells that are traveling west. When I can no longer stand on the seabed is when I'm most relaxed and the world is at it's quietest.
Everything between myself and the horizon line has my full unwavering attention. Just over three-hundred million cubic kilometers of water waltzes in front of me...the cusp of the dance to my six. I remain fixated on the expansiveness of such a thing. I want to get lost out there. I want that deep blue sea to humble me. Rubber to damp tramp and I set sail for that esoteric inspiration that only the great universe can feed us.
Until I choose to introvert, this blog will be a catalog of my the journey that blends right into the next journey. There's no title page in life, no preface, no clean chapters, and no true afterward.
As the late Alan Watts would ask, "Remember what it was like before you were born?"...and we can't. Our perception of this life is rather gray. We don't remember the moment we became conscious beings. We don't know the moment we'll stop. I'm willing myself to balance todays as if there is and isn't tomorrows.
I will attempt to define the human spirit, the soul if you wish...as of now, it is our precious attention. Where I choose to look, what I choose to listen to, the things I spend time thinking on...they have my soul in the immediate. May Darwinian subjects sign deals with my soul.
I challenge myself to live a life of adventure.
From here on out, I will love and be scared of the future I enter.
